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The loneliness...that was green.......

I have always loved colors, all of them! And often it surprised me as to how our lives could blend so well with them.Infact I would say that there is an innate bond between our lives and these colors. If you are quite unsure how, then consider this –

Let’s take our day to day spoken language; we often use idioms like ‘out of the blue’, ’black sheep’, ‘the red tape’, ‘in the pink’ and many more like them… Obviously the touch of these colors in our language is profuse, isn’t it?
Now let’s have a look at our society - It’s Vasant Panchami, and there we see girls dressed in Yellow.
It’s a marriage ceremony and the lovely bride is draped in Red or any other similar bright lively color to light up the occasion…
It’s the time to perform rituals or prayers and there we are in pure serene colors – the usual Whites, off-whites or cream.

When I come to think of it, I feel we have actually associated variety of colors for every occasions and circumstances in our lives.We also express our moods with the colors that we chose to wear thereby making the world around us just so flamboyant!

Certainly these colors have deep roots in our environment, but what about the world inside each one of us?
When I try to look into the world inside me, I find so many things. It doesn’t comprise only of work, friends or family for sure, there is also a huge array of emotions and memories.I can clearly see my laughter, dreams, childhood memories; then the feelings like - anxiety, fear, pain, love, loneliness, boredom, frustrations; the values like care, respect and the list just goes on… Are these colored too? Can’t say, but yes, I am in love with colors I would like to paint my own world with them…


So lets face the question, "what if one wants to give colors to one’s world inside"?
If I had to identify my feelings, virtues and memories with colors, then this is how I would go about…
White would have its pristine touch on my prayers as they are pure...
Sky blue would be the color for my dreams because they are just as limitless and abundant as the streak of blue in the sky...
Orange would be energetic enough to befit my enthusiasm, and Yellow would be the emblem of freshness and not just any yellow but the one with the tint of fresh sunflower.I often don yellow outfits when I really need a break from monotonous things.

And black? That is reserved for my frustrations only! They had always blacked out things for me!
....With lavender I would paint my childhood memories for I don’t remember any festival when I wouldn’t have yearned for apparels of lavender hue.

Then the dull brown would be attributed to the boring moments which I had spend standing in long queues waiting for the buses and struggling in mumbai local trains…

The red? Hmmn….if you guessed that it would be for love, then I beg to differ! Wouldn’t it be a good idea to remember love with someone’s name than just a color?

And what about the Green? Well, let me confess that green holds a special place in my heart. I forget my worries or tensions whenever I see green in abundance - be it the green mountains after rain or the stretch of infinite farms.And it would be challenging for me to associate it with the deserving thing in my life.

While looking out for the suitable contender for green I find so many times of my life - some exuberant and full of friends and some filled with loneliness.
However, when I look closely, the good times with friends were amazing and lively but the lonely times were the ones which brought about changes in me…some positive and some negative but on a whole I always emerged out of them with something new. Those “something new” were the modest interests I pursued at different point of times which ranged from reading various novels, learning a foreign language, work outs in gym, playing table tennis and starting with a blog this time around…
The more I think about those times the more I get convinced that my loneliness yielded me new hobbies and brought about a refreshing change in me…and I am extremely fond of changes especially if they are fruitful…I guess we all are! Those changes then brought people who had same interests and there it was a full circle for me…Meeting the like minded folks, few of whom became my friends later…
I now feel that such phases prove to be one of the best times for us to bump into our hidden creativity and also propel us towards the unprecedented feats that we otherwise fail to associate ourselves with.
Hence, I would relate loneliness,a fertile entity, with my favorite Green – the color of growth, the mark of creativity and the epitome of life…
So the next time any kind of aloneness comes your way don’t let it become blues of your life, make it green. Reap its benefit and meet a “different you” every time it pays a visit.
And when that “different you” brings about rewarding and enriching returns, it would surely remind you of the Loneliness …that was green!!!

the dream boat....

dont know what you guys made of the title...for me it means something else....anyway so tht boat may not always sail right and correct isn't it....Or let me say that i am one of those 80 % people who couldnt steer it right...for what ever reason...

but i dont mind accepting the blame or credit :) whatever...

IGNORE....its the chatter within self....